Welcome to SaPPoS!

Welcome to SaPPoS - Siblings, Parents, and Pals of Suicide.  While I'm happy you're here, I am 100% sad, and devestated by what brought you here.  The hope and goal of SaPPoS is to bring forward real stories of suicicde survivors.  To show the raw, cold, lonely place of grief and to learn and share what others have gone through on their journies.    

Grief is a language we never expect to learn, yet somehow, we find ourselves forced to speak it fluently. After losing two brothers to suicide, I was left with an ache too deep for words and a silence that stretched endlessly. The world kept spinning, and I found myself searching for meaning.  Something beyond just existing through the pain. I needed a way to honor my brothers, navigate the rawness of loss, and connect with others who understood this journey.

This blog was born out of that need.

Suicide loss is unlike any other. We’re left with guilt, overwhelming sadness, anger, and a whole lot of what if's, why’s, and if only’s. Siblings, parents, and close friends, each experience the loss differently, yet we are all bound by the weight of missing someone we loved deeply. We are survivors, not just of tragedy, but of the journey and life that follows.

Through this space, I hope to share the reality of suicide loss.  The unspoken moments, the raw emotions, and the slow, uneven path toward healing. But more than that, I want to hear your stories. I want us to create a community where grief is not hidden, where we speak openly, and where remembrance is not just painful, but powerful.

Loss reshapes us, but it does not have to define us. By sharing, supporting, and listening to one another, we can find strength in the connections we build. If you’ve ever felt alone in your grief, I hope this space reminds you that you are seen, your pain is valid, and healing, however it looks for you, is possible.  For that, I am happy you are here.  

Let’s walk this path together.  We are not alone.